Buzzcut-itis

Yeah. Uhm, it's really hard to take yourself seriously when you're in the middle of playbacks and someone notices you mispronounce "artist." :)

Today was a good day. It was a milestone actually. I completed an entire two days worth of show!!! It is possible!!! Thank goodness, because I was starting to get worried.

Being comfortable in front of the mic is improving too. It really is hard to talk to yourself, and I'm always worried about what I'm going to say, so there tend to be a few awkward pauses where I don't want them to be. It's also getting a lot easier to identify my "outs" and how to tighten up my breaks--it's doing it on the first try that's proving to be the challenge. But I do feel like I'm getting closer to being ready and building some confidence. It is so easy to tell myself to relax, it's the doing it that is difficult. On the drive out to the station there were a few things I really wanted to say and I had it pretty well planned in my mind. I just still trip up a little bit when the time comes to actually do it.

I'm sure you've figured out by now that today's pic is the FuseFM staff. I have no idea why, but I love it. Maybe it's because everyone looks so happy to be there, or maybe it's because I'm in it and it's like having proof of being an actual member of said staff. :) I don't really feel like a DJ yet--probably because I have yet to start my own show, and because the past few weeks have been thrwarted by toddler illness so I haven't been on the regular schedule. I know the DJ part will come. There are still days--today even--when I think to myself, "Holy cow! I am actually a DJ!!!" Pretty cool.

The thing I find most surprising is that the breaks where I'm sharing personal stories or how I feel about life and God are the ones I think I mess up the most on, and yet those are the ones Dice seems to like. I guess there's the added feeling of vulnerability that makes me question those breaks so much. But music is more than just a beat to me--it's about life and mistakes and learning and love and happiness and joy and a whole host of other adjectives. It is so important to me that you know that and that I make sure to share it with you in my breaks. It is yet another reason why I love what we do at FuseFM. We play songs about struggles and relationships--being a Christian doesn't make you immune to heartache. If I had a goal as far as being a FuseFM DJ, it would be to share with you my heartaches so that you know you're not alone in yours.

Radio Lingo of the Day: Buzzcut-itis. Since I'm a "staff member" I figure it's only fair that I am allowed to add words to the English language. From now on, "buzzcut-itis" refers to an overabundance of new and amazing music. It may sound funny, but being overwhelmed by new music is not a laughing matter. This condition can best be cured by popping in Joey Lawrence's debut (and final?) album. Or even voting at myfusefm.com :)

See you Friday!!!